12:16 - 04-11-07
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It's strange to find myself disappointed again. I don't know what I was expecting. It's always odd to discover that you had expectations that were somehow violated.
I haven't written in here in forever. I just don't have enough time or privacy. The privacy thing is about to continue. Laura is coming to stay with me temporarily.
I just planned my lesson for Thursday. I'm going to pull a Ms. M and bullshit the hell out of an interpretation of Jose Rivera's brief play, "Winged Man." I remember when she was spouting off a bunch of nonsense (not grounded in the text) about Romulus Liney's "Stars" I thought she was so amazingly intelligent for being able to discern all the things in it that I missed. I told her I was impressed and she gave me a look and said something, I don't remember what it was, but the overall message was that she was a good bullshitter and that was what a director needed to do/be at the time. I disagree. I think bullshitting makes for a bad director; however, it's the essence of teaching. :) I found a list of quotes from Jose Rivera that were also pretty inspiring and exciting.
I think I can turn this into a lesson. Plus, it'll be good to have them read for the entire period. I want to do more reading.
I talked to a lot of friends tonight. I was feeling down but unable to articulate why and I needed someone to be there for me. I have great people in my life. I'm very lucky. I'd probably still be on the phone with Emily Y. right now if I didn't have to go to work tomorrow.
get it while you can
